14/9/10
By assessing the controlling influence that 80 to 90% of my sub conscious has over me, I am starting to recognise the way this human game is meant to be played.
I used to be a victim of a mind-set that was always warning me of what terrible things could be causing this pain. In the past 6 weeks - since listening to Sonia Barrett talking on Red Ice Radio about the software program that runs us, I have started to clear away heaps of shit in an effort to get at this basic programming.Suddenly I was able to clearly hear these sad little voices that keep telling me about the dreadful things that might happen. To demonstrate this craziness: my eyes were driving me crazy because they were constantly brimming over with water and I could not see - even while driving! I had gone to my local GP who gave me the wrong drops, causing even more problems, so in fear I went to the best place I could think of - an eye and ear hospital, but here one has to sit and wait for hours. I was there from 1pm till 9pm waiting, waiting, waiting; in pain with brimming eyes and fear of going blind. Meaning that I was a complete wreck by the time they saw me….they gave me more drops and made an outpatients appointment for three weeks time….so for the next week I suffered these blurred eyes, getting more and more concerned but not yet able to really understand what I was doing to myself. So a week ago I went to Emergency at my local hospital. Within a short time a kind and gentle doctor examined my eyes carefully asking all the right questions and actually listening to what I had to say (amazing) and after awhile he just looked at me and said quietly. “I can see nothing wrong with your eyes so I am sorry I can’t help you.” I was staggered. I mopped up my running eyes and asked for something that would stop it but he just said “I can’t give you anything because I can’t see anything wrong.”
So I left crying, (more tears) wondering what the hell I was going to do, but by the next morning my eyes had stopped running. All day I waited for it all to start up again, and this is when I first heard myself…heard the warnings, and the doubt, and the expectation that it would all start up again soon. All these voices were telling me to expect the worst, to be prepared, to be ready.
So I began writing in my diary, and as I wrote saw how fragmented I was, and how this inner voice - the sub conscious programming - was a form of protection that has been happening to me since I was a tiny child; always warning me; always expecting the worse; always keeping me in fear so I would be ready to act to save myself.
Sems that wonderful doctor had the authority to shut my sub conscious (voices) down. His authority released my poor body from having to obey what the sub conscious was telling it to do - to keep the eyes running in case I had a brain tumour or something.(My Dad died of a brain tumour so you can see why the voices would be so agitated about the eyes.)
The power laying in our sub conscious mind is overwhelming. It has 80% to 90% control over our waking lives.
Anyway I am now so aware of these various warnings and suggestions that I almost laugh when I hear them!.
Then I read Lester Levenson’s story! Wow! Has that made an impact. I guess because I am now in discovery mode, I am laying open so much stuff!…… seeing the extent of this core programming that we all have to deal with.
Within us is this formula - the Newtonian clock-work universe. I see it as a Morphic Field that has gained so much strength over the centuries which means the Morphic Field laying out the science for a quantum universe will probably take some time before it can replace Newton’s mechanical universe model. Meanwhile we all have this mechanical model programmed into our core software and we will have to do something about it if we are going to move past this rigid contrivance that we have been taught to live within. That’s what my being able to hear these sub conscious voices has done for me. I have over-ridden so much ’stuff’. It’s my understanding that this is what Lester did. he went through his life and replaced all the pain with love.
For the past month I have been humming along, writing stuff, discovering more stuff, and really coming to terms with the various parts of myself that have been sabotaging my life, then the night before last I came to a full stop because I didn’t know what my next move was going to be. At the same time I knew that although I am now in touch with the way I operate, I still am fragmented and if I turn away from what I have found now - if I give up because it is so confusing, or too hard, or maybe it’s unreal and I’m crazy - all stuff my subconscious is feeding me, the same old existence will reinstate itself and nothing will have changed. But the trouble was, I was not sure what to do next. I had laid bare these controlling sub conscious fragments, but how to deal with them so they would cease to dictate my life. I started to worry, and felt the first shimmering of depression starting up. How could I have come so far, yet not have a solution?
After a few hours of this agitated mental ping-pong, where my mind was trying to solve the problem, I went back to Lester’s writing, and immediate ’saw” that he had used Love. Straight away I knew if I could send love to all these fragmented parts of myself they would merge into a unified Whole.
So that’s what I am doing, and yesterday as I listened to a classical concert - a wonderful pianist playing Beethoven, not only did I have a fleeting feeling that I was unified with the pianist - that we were one, but I felt the wonder and the brilliant power of Beethoven; felt it for the first time even though I have admired and loved his music all my life. Suddenly I ‘felt’ him. Words can’t explain, but for a few seconds I knew that we were all one, that I was part of him - part of such brilliance….and the words that I have heard so often lately - that we are magnificent beings - came to mind. We are magnificent and we are all One. Trouble is it was only momentary. I think I have to love myself much more before any miracle occurs.
Which that brings me to my next point. In the past when I have heard that one must love oneself I thought it was sort of an mind thing - but its not. It is an actual physical thing. Love comes from the heart, but it is an energy. A live, actual energy, and we are able to grasp this energy with our imagination and send it to parts of ourselves. That’s what loving oneself is all about. It’s not an ego thing, it’s a practical use of a healing energy that we can all use at any time.
I think it is helpful to be physically alone to do this work, but we are not alone - how can we be, when we are all part of the same wholeness? I haven’t really been in touch with any angels or guides, but I know some people use them. I am very aware of my higher self - and who knows, these intelligences all might be part of the one over-arching help system? I really do not know how the Universe works - I just know we are not alone, and as we come into this 3dimension world of separation, in our initial subconscious (or software) the idea of separation is a key part of the program. It has to be if we are going to learn anything during in this life. I also think that factored into this initial software the actual PLAN that we devised before we arrived here, is also programmed in, and can be accessed. Indeed we can access most of this basic software, I don’t think there is any need to shift it. Loving it is the solution. I think the loving is the ‘control/alt/delete key’ that removes the blockages and allows us to experience what Lester experienced. Unity with the Whole and a recognition that we are all part of the Source. So designed into our basic software are three vital operating programs: 1. The Plan; 2. The Separation ; 3. The Limitation. All this stuff is built - possibly before we are born - then we get to add all those experiences we live through during our first years on the planet - usually with people we are meant to interact with, so you know there are going to be more trials and difficulties plugged into our programming. Once we reach puberty and for the rest of our existence in this dense limiting environment most of us try to deal with this subconscious driver in order to take back control and override the initial program. That’s the game!
Posted by Lyn on September 14th, 2010 :: Filed under
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