LOVE

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Being what some call a little ‘sensitive’ I have struggled with the process of living here on this planet. Since I was quite small the questions that well up whenever I fall into that ‘black hole’ are always the same… what is life all about…why are we here….what are we supposed to be doing with our lives?  And on a more personal level….what good am I….what should I be doing that I am not?

All of which leads me to wish I did not have to deal with this earthbound existence. Probably this state of depression is caused by some sort of chemical imbalance, or maybe I am just angry because I am failing to do what I am supposed to be doing…who knows…in any case right now, under these extreme external circumstances, as cosmic energy floods the planet, my imbalance seems to be getting worse. The dark feelings are welling up more often (although on the positive side, they fade away much faster too)

 So last night, as I tried again to find the answer to the ‘big’  WHAT ARE WE HERE FOR question I caught a glimmer of something new! Momentarily I ‘saw’ that all our rational ideas about life are wrong!

Suddenly I was very excited!

To back-treadle a little; recently I have ‘seen’ that lying dormant within each cell of our physical body is a divine component which only needs ‘attention’ for it to become active. The very act of acknowledging this so-called ‘divine spark’ invigorates a feeling of LOVE. I hasten to add here that I am not a Christian meaning I have never ever used the term Divine Spark before, but I really cannot find a better term for what I have just begun to understand.

 Anyway last night my vision went a step further and I ‘saw’ that the fundamental reason for human existence in this 3rd dimensional world is to activate this  Divine Spark. As each individual finds the ability to do this he/she moves into a new state of consciousness. We become LOVE.  

I know these words sound like some trite cliché but how does one find the precise terminology for knowledge that sits outside one’s normal experience?  I am struggling to find the exact words to describe this transfiguration.

It would seem that what activates this Divine Energy - constantly permeating each cell of our body - is our actual act of attention. By focussing attention on the phenomena of this cellular energy (which can be called love or maybe appreciation, as some are calling it) we activate IT. When this happens we know something has taken place because of the overwhelming feeling of gratitude and thankfulness we spontaneously feel.

This insight showed me that before birth this Divine Energy is built into our cellular structure. It is the act of ‘attention’ that causes us to become aware…which gives us the experience. So when our awareness is triggered in some way, we move towards the understanding that we are Divine. This is a very hard thing to write about. The acceptance that we are Divine seems too egocentric; too full of self! But I am sure that when we active this Spark we are actually experiencing a feeling of self-love. Indeed, this is almost a demand! We automatically begin to feel deep love for ourselves! How can we not love ourselves when everyone of us consists of Divine energy?

From this position our awareness alters - or mine has - and now I understand that being aware of this Divine energy is the first step towards becoming LOVE…

AND THIS TRANSFORMATION IS WHY WE ARE HERE!

 

I would like to reiterate that I have no religious affiliation. I have come to these conclusions through rational, practical analysis. My Springboard for this conclusion is the struggle I have had with life long depression. To survive, my attention has been forced inwards, and these are the conclusions I have reached.

Posted by Lyn on April 5th, 2009 :: Filed under Creative Writing
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